How was your father's day?

Was this Father's day any different from past father's day without your loved one? Did covid-19 make it worse? For me, it was pretty much the same as any other father's day. I didn't want to be bothered. I just wanted to skip the day and go right to the next. I didn't visit my fathers grave because I didn't feel like being sad. And I didn't have anything to make me feel happy. I didn't want to try and think about good time. Why should I? What would that change? I just kept busy and focused on the next day.