Have you ever had a bad day or felt a little off and didn't know why? Or realized later on that that day had some significance? Maybe it's because it's your loved ones birthday, passing anniversary, or just their favorite time of year? Maybe it's their favorite season? It's weird that these things trigger our moods automatically and when we don't realize that until we have settled in our beds or had time to sit and focus on something other than our everyday tasks that holds our attention 100% of the time. 

But like you, I always wondered how'd this tends to happen. How do our moods automatically become affected when we aren't aware of the significance until later? 

Well my theory is that even with our loved ones not being here physically, we are still connected to them mentally and emotionally. They still have an affect on us. See we never forget about them or how much they mean to us. I call these mood changes silent triggers that we push deep down inside of us to get us through the day. Just like we try to ignore our emotions that surface during their birthday and passing anniversary. We too tend to try to ignore other significant days. And when we do that it becomes a habit to ignore but our mental never forgot these significant days. So we wake up and have these bad days and/or moody "for no reason". 

For me, I don't like the month of April, because it's the month of my mother's and grandfather's birthday. Who are no longer here. May because of mother's day and it's the month my Father passed away. So it's obvious I don't like June either because of father's day. I also have a hard time in August. It's the month my mom passed away and my fiancé grandfather, who I loved dearly. And November is another hard month for because it's the month my grandfather passed away, who was buried on my father's birthday. So as you can only guess, my moods and emotions are at an all time high during these months. Just like holidays. 

We miss them the most and we don't really recognize that these times have affects on us until we have quieted our minds or someone brings it to our attention. It has become a natural thing for us to be emotional unknowingly. These days are forever engraved in our hearts and our heart never forgets even when we tend to hide it and lock it away. 

So next time you are having a bad day or emotional for no reason, sit and think, and if it's related to your loved one. Take a moment to acknowledge them and say hello. It's just them reminding you about them. Just like when you're so busy and forget someones birthday.
